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zenyteehee · 27 days ago

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24 days sober, and I still hate this. What I wouldn’t give for a gummy, just to take away the unending frustrations of this week. The thing is, as much as I’m laying on my bed sober rn wishing I could be high, I vividly remember a night about a month or two ago where I sat on my bed high wishing I’d kept my sober run from last January. Honestly, as much as I wish I was stoned, that was worse. That was worse. Better to be sober wishing you could be high than high wishing you could be sober

#sober #me #delete later #glad I decided to do a dry january cuz otherwise I would just get drunk instead #and that’s worse than getting high #but i can be drunk the night before and pass a drug test in the morning #so here we are #i wish i could go back and tell 2021 me not to take those gummies from my friend in oregon #it was fine for a while but i knew even then that i would become dependent on them eventually #i just didn’t care #and tbh if i didn’t have to be sober to pass drug tests for my new job i still wouldn’t #but i was binge drinking back then if i’m being honest #we’ve been here for a long time

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